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Done with this...

2007-06-21T18:50:23Z

So while I'm at home taking care of mom I get to watch a lot of news, and other t.v., and some political coverage when she takes a nap. (I know I'm a dork get over it) Here's a few things I'm done with as concerns the news

1. News stories that shouldn't be fucking news.

Who celebs are doing, who did a celeb x-teen years ago. Who's baby-dady is this.

2. National Coverage of local shit

Anything that doesn't affect more than those close to the situation is bullshit. "Ooh frozen cheescake prices are at record lows in Alaska" should only air in Alaska.

3. Political coverage that isn't policy, or candidate positions

Al Gore's weight fluctuations do not count as political coverage. Federal Circuit court judge ruling that Bush can't suspend writ of habeus corpus does.

4. Frantic coverage of rich little white girls that go missing in the carribean, or anywhere else for that matter, when hundreds of people who are not rich little white girls go missing w/o coverage every day.

The last one is kind of self explanitory. It's not that I don't feel for those families going through a really shitty situation, it just shouldn't be national news. Unless you're willing to dedicate the same amount of energy and coverage to finding those missing persons that don't have thousand dollar rewards.

5. Finally, that I get more real information from the Daily Show, and The Colbert Report, than any of the the national news networks, including cable news.

Cable news has no excuse it's paid for and has to fill 24 hours, not being limited to 3 one hour shows a day like local news.

Try: The Guardian, NPR, The Economist, Wall Street Journal, and BBC publications actually aleviate many of these issues but not all.

No subject just what's up

2007-06-19T08:30:20Z

Since I post so infrequently I thought I'd let folks know how things are in my neck of the woods. The fam is fine and mom is well on the road to recovery from surgury. That's the biggest concern right now, making sure things are relatively easier for her. I say relatively because I know what it's like to feel useless and don't think that's a good thing for a post op recovery. So those of you that know me and hopefully mom will forgive me if I sometimes "forget" to make everything easier.

On other fronts things are more or less okay, though an improvement in the job depot wouldn't hurt. But when would an improvement there hurt really. For those that have a few free weekends there will be some scottish games in Jeff City this weekend (oy 'spose I should get hold of Cammy since I'm supposed to help), and after that the annual explosion extravaganza in platte co. Full contact croquet will be in effect. Any other suggested amusements for the pre-dusk would be considered espescially if it's outdoors and dangerous fun like lawn darts, or pin the tail on grandpa from thirty paces.

I'm quasi enjoying the 3rd installment of Top Chef. But it could be all hype by the end of it. And if we have to see any more stupid f*ing foams or jelee type shit on every plate...I'll be forced to hunt down the offending chef and beat them upside the head with a copy of Escoffier and pour hot Demi in their eyes. And that goes for cooking pasta in a bus tub with lab equipment too. Actually I'll prolly just rant about it here.

There now that I've got that out of our system. So long for now

The Odd Comment...from left field

2007-02-17T23:25:45Z

I know I usually rail against the use of LJ and online culture in general, but I'll put that soap box down for the moment. Very simply I hope everyone had as pleasant a holiday this week as was possible. Whether it was in honoring the memory of a Catholic Saint, a Gangland Massacre, or reminding you to get your vaccinations (VD remember).
I personally had a pleasant if un-romantic holiday. A rare event of late; my family as a whole went out for dinner together w/o any serious stressors. We had an enjoyable evening of cracking crustaceans, and under spiced shrimp.
Perhaps we'll come out of winter hibernation soon, mabey not; but till then Gesundheit.

A note (B sharp)

2006-06-13T19:03:18Z

On another note (C flat)
I know I haven't been posting all that much nor do I watch the online circles all that frequently but I have been made aware of something disturbing to me. The continued snarkiness and general devisive/partisan bitchiness concerning the drama of the past (in general) and the events of Heartland (in specific) needs to stop. If we are to kill the dragon called drama we need to let it starve in it's cave rather than draging it up out of the earth again and again. No progress, growth, or healing can come of picking and scratching at wounds especially at those freshly bandaged. If this doesn't apply to you my apologies, stop reading this post here.
If anyone has cause to be upset, angry, or snarky about those events it is the people involved directly. I personally have made an effort to bury hatchets and move forward. It would be appreciated if others could do so as well. Knowing that this is an idealist position I simply ask that others know that I will not be party to snarkiness concerning the people I care about and that we be left out of it.

To whom it may concern:
I must apologize for my inability to understand what was trying to be communicated to me. I acted with best intentions even though I didn’t understand; my actions hurt those close to me. For this I must also appologize. Causing pain, misunderstanding, and confusion, were the farthest things from what I wanted or what I was trying to do.
I have learned the hard way that in a tug of war the rope is ultimately the part of the contest that loses. This lesson has come at a cost too dear to continue the contest or repeat it. The wisdom of advice and warnings came to late, and were only seen even later. For this I am also sorry.
The first step in healing or fixing the damage done is to stop causing more damage. To that end I have written this letter recognizing that I could have handled things better, and made other mistakes as well. I hope others can own up to their mistakes and missteps as well. For my part I’ll not be taking the place of the rope again if I can help it. I hope that the relationships with those I have hurt are not beyond repair and I am willing to work with those who will work with me.

It seed appropriate...

In perfect love and perfect trust and another...

From the hip...

2006-04-16T04:40:38Z

So here is what's up since my last post.

rocked polisci like no other, term paper written in 7hrs total work time. Last minute error in due dates caused this. One of my tutoring students pulled me aside to tell me how much I had helped her with one of her tests. Much better than her normal tutor. And I have generally rocked at life since. We hope to continue this wave.

Congrats to Breaca on her academic glories. And another call to everyone who can get a free weekend on the 22nd, come and help the horde. If you want good fires we need good help getting the wood and building them.

More to follow over the next few days. P.S. If anyone has some experience with carving wood (large scale) you may want to get in touch with Ashe or Mary.

Price Gouging fuckers.

2006-02-28T19:42:47Z

So in an effort to be efficient and forward thinking I went and looked at book prices of some of the classess I was looking at taking next semester or this summer. Campus bookstore was on average an extra 75% in cost over Amazon or the Publisher directly for the same product brand new.
So far the only thing that I have found in the bookstore is that they are the place to go for calandars around the end of february (If you can wait a little while). The ones that don't move before christmas and Jan. 1st make their way to the $1 table and often enough have dates well into the following year. Brand new stuff for a dollar, and they like you taking it because your helping move stuff that doesn't sell. Kinda like steaks cooked to well done (You don't want to know how long that thing has been on the grill).

The often quiet speaks...

2006-02-21T01:00:57Z

So here is what is going on for those who haven't spoken with me recently.

School: 15 hrs, but going well. I love my Medival Europe, and Antibellum Culture classes (even though I'm sometimes not thrilled by the content). State and local prof. is rediculously loud. And we have two online classes for the last 8 weeks of school; Personal Health and Hygene (Biology Req), and American Civil war (Other Amer.Hist Req)take two.

Work: I'm officially a substitute teacher now. So that now makes three part time jobs Cheffing, Subbing, and Office Gopher at the college. Wow can this be confusing.

Personal: I'm happier in general than I was this time last year. While there are some specific reasons for this I don't feel like listing them right now but in general here's why. Religiously, intellectually, emotionally, and physically, I feel better and healthy. I have more direction, and am working to control my routines to better fit in everything I want to achieve. In addition to my professional and academic work I have several pet projects. My personal Summa Theologica, A cookbook, collecting the means and resources to be the "cool" memorable teacher that got you through the boredom of History. Training for the day when I can play No. 6 again, coaching, and Highland games.

Beyond all of this I there are some other people, and circumstances that are contributing very much to all of this and to them I am very gratefull.

Thats it, cheers bitches.

P.S. Emily what are you doing in your Roman studies?

To explain the last one...

2006-01-26T01:15:17Z

so my last post my have not made much sense. But the point that I was trying to make was that at a real job in the work-a-day world, incompetence is a constant and comes from a constant source (sources may vary but there is always a source). But at least that job EXPECTS the individual to be competent and treats you as such, expectations. My post as the secretary's gopher at the school isn't a bad one but it's pissing me off. I find it preety sad that I can half ass my way through the first week, miss the second and come back sick as a dog and still be more productive and effecient than the supposed experienced employees.

And now for something completely different

2006-01-24T19:31:45Z

I now know why so many of my friends who have been at their careers shook their heads at my news of going back to school and finishing my undergrad work. While this may be fun at least in corporate america or at least real jobs they are consistant in where the incompetence lies.
.more to follow (mtf)

The First Good Sunday of the Year

2006-01-22T22:00:32Z

First off, Happy Birthday Marry! From where I sit a good time was had by all. Secondly I got a letter in the Snail Mail letting me know that the state of Missouri has cleared me to work with Children. Quit locking them up or thinking you're gonna move to a different state so they don't end up in my classroom eventually. I finally got my routine down so I can get all of my class crap done before Midnight on Sundays and have time to work and be a social person as well.
Woke up around 10am, luxury you say, possibly but I didn't get home till 5:30 the same morning. I'm okay with that. Just turned in three essays for the about the "Sectionalism Causes" of the American Civil War. All while sipping Hot Green Tea, and Mandarin Orange Iced Tea, and listening to Bob Marley, and James Taylor, next up Beatles Tunes done be other people. Lemme tell ya you haven't heard something completely wrong till you've hear Jim Carrey sing "I am the Walrus."

Any other man just stops and talks
But not the Walking Man...

So this is new...hmmm.

2006-01-11T23:16:35Z

So now I've got a job at the college being a gopher for the Academic Support Center/ Career Development. They give me a desk and say "Say hello" to everyone who comes in and calls. Oh, and get the mail too. So I'm a clerk.... Greaaat. But it's definetly less stressfull than dinner rush, and about a thousand plates. I can't believe they are actually goona pay me for this and I don't have to be elbow deep in cow's or pig's blood. But I can still do that on the weekends if I wanna. Bonus: for cleaning the supply closet I earned a tiki mug. So now you all chant Muppet Treasure Island Style

Boom sha ka la ka Boom sha ka la ka BOOM Shaka laka laka BOOM Shaka laka laka

All Hail the mystical TIKI MUG. It's invader-tiki power marches through my veins like giant rubber pants! Do not ignore my veins!

And on that note
ttfn later and all that stuff.

Resolutions?

2005-12-31T21:28:15Z

I generally don't like the idea of making "resolutions" because it's a certain random day of the year. However since this is when most people won't shoot me for talking about them, here are some of mine.

To not let fires die and burn out.
To prove to myself I'm the best
version of me that I can be.
Then to become better than that.

To sprint to the ball, and Ruck the shit out of whatever gets in my way. Take the ball;keeping my feet. Run and Pass, and score between the posts.
Then get up and do it again.

And anyone who knows about the P.H. R.F.C.
"WHAT!?"

"BUUUUTTTTTNAAAAAAKKKKKKEEEEEEDDDDD!"

A musing

2005-12-21T15:06:11Z

It is a wonder to me
How the most calming voice
Often doesn't know what to say
but finds the right words by
accident. By hook or crook
they find the salve.

It's Official work sucks but it's okay.

2005-12-21T14:59:14Z

So I missed to company Christmas party, but I don't care. I'd much rather just get the 20 bucks they spent per person. On lighter notes today is my orientation for getting my foot in the door of an educators career.

I saw my hair dresser yesterday, and got two of the people off my shopping list. About a million left...

A lighter note

2005-12-05T06:01:39Z

For some unknown reason I've been extremely productive, and driven, and happy about that, and where it's going. So I'm not going to question why or where this happend just hope that it will continue and that my instincts are guiding me correctly.

Okay A not so exhausted rant...

2005-12-05T05:58:16Z

What I said about being done with the food industry is true. Though it may break the hearts of some; I'm done. I made this decision back in May. But now I am at a point where I can move on this decision without being scared of backlash. I know now what it takes ot succeed in a tough industry and what I need to do to suceed anywhere else I go. But my vision for my life does not and will not include working in a kitchen, or being a Chef of any nature as a profession. Yes I enjoy food, and nearly all of the processes of producing some of the world's best food (yeah I know I'm humble too). But doing that for the rest of my life is simply not what I want to do. I shall remain Aziz, precious, an educator, theologian, logician, and historian in other words an academic. So don't be suprised when I announce invitations to a party celebrating the confering of my B.A., M.A., Ph.d, Post Doc, or other degree.

The Gods Must Be Crazy...And So am I.

2005-12-03T08:49:14Z

I must be a glutton for pain and punishment. Wait; mabey I am but only the kind of punishment that I think I want. And if that is the case why am I still working in the food industry...That's it I'm out. Done. Fuck the food. Now I've got the saftey net worries out of the way. time to go after the dreams! Those who know me closely know what those are, but perhaps not all or how dogged I can be.

Quote of the day: Yeah, but he's dumber than a bag of hair.
Driving thought: "No day but today!"

For those who have way to much time to read this.... Last two-three weeks crazy. But on the flipside I have an orientation to be a sub for my old school district (yay), and I've got the school thing taken care of 15hrs, but not all at once. I grad by May 07 if not sooner.

Transitive Property of crazy
THe gods must be crazy: Gods=Crazy
And so am I: Me=Crazy
Therefore?: Gods=Crazy=Me aka Gods=Me
well perhaps...who knows I could be a god, the god of feel free to comment on what Aziz should be the god of. (Yeah, I know the grammar isn't that good but what do you want from me I just got home and it's like three in the AM.) Just name me the god of something; to amuse me.

THat's it for now cheers bitches.